Missing You

mama daddy going gentle into that good night mother's day 2017

More than 20 years and more than 6 years,
From left to right,
You’ve been gone from me.
Sometimes it feels like yesterday; sometimes it feels like forever.

Been fighting a deep, intense descent into the blues lately,
And couldn’t figure out why,
Because on the surface I shouldn’t be.
Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me?

Suddenly broke down into a good cry yesterday,
Watching a video of a mom dancing to an old pop song with her son,
And it hit me.
I’m missing you; I’m missing both of you.

Opening up old doors,
And breaking open the scabs on the scars of those empty places in my heart,
Wrapping up a final tangible piece of both of you.
Objectively, it’s a blessing; subjectively, it’s another goodbye.

Ready for no more goodbyes,
Ready for just hellos,
Ready for then.
But must just keep walking toward it; must just keep walking toward it for now.

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